welcome to 2012

The last day of 2011 found me with plans that couldn't be. Just like much of 2011 and 2010 all plans I had were over ridden by forces bigger than myself. Just when I found myself lost in thought, trying to figure out just how I would solve for the unfulfilled plans of 2011, I was fortunate enough to see a gorgeous meteor, unlike anything I had ever seen before. Like something from the special effects team working for George Lucas, a large object shot across the sky. It entered in a burst of bright orange and was trailed by a tail that seemed to stretch for miles, blue and green fire outlined in white, carving through the sky. Before I could grab my phone the meteor disintegrated into a fizzling red burst. It was beautiful, amazing, and unbelievable. And had anything gone according to plan, it would have been unviewed by me. I sat in awe, near tears at this reassuring sign, a promise welcoming me into the new year with hope, faith, and overwhelming trust in a purpose and plan bigger than myself. One that I cannot predict no matter how much I try.

As I leave behind 2011, I leave the bitterness. I leave the hurt caused by plans erased. I leave behind sadness for what has been lost. I leave behind anger over actions that were, and actions that weren't. In 2011 I thank the hurt, the sorrow, the anguish for teaching me the lessons needed to push me harder, make me stronger, and bring me humbly to my knees. I leave 2011 racing towards a new horizon full of faith, hope, and possibility.

I welcome 2012 as the year of new for myself. A place where great things will fall into place as I work hard at applying the lessons of the past four years. It will not be without its challenges and it will not be perfect everyday. But I will allow each day to be a new one. I will allow each moment to come, bringing with it all it has to offer. I will learn to accept more than I question. I will learn to rewrite my world by what exists today, letting go of the yesterdays that add no value and have no meaning in today. I will value each day and aim to be my true self each and everyday.