Many of my friends don't think I enjoy being alone. I actually enjoy it quite a bit. I am just social by nature and enjoy being in the company of others more. Not just any others...people I love and respect and trust. People who fill the same as me and people I can be 100 percent authentic around. But when those people are not available I actually enjoy the company I keep alone with myself.
I turn the music on and listen to the songs I love and songs I haven't heard in awhile. I write and I read what I wrote months and years in the past. I look at pictures and I walk freely around my apartment that stays clean because there is no one to mess it up. I close my eyes and find myself in a place where the voices in my head sit still. I pray to God and thank Heaven for my blessings. I find a unique strength in my time alone when strength is not needed.
I dance to the beat of my life which is easy to see as full of love and happiness and good in these moments alone...uncluttered by existence outside of my own. I melt into myself here because I am allowed to be first...to be only. I can think more clearly, because I can see my place in this world.
I am able to see the honesty I have been hiding in the chaos. I can breath. So it is never that I can't be alone or dislike it. I can and I enjoy it. I choose to be surrounded in my life by friends and family because as much as I enjoy myself I enjoy others equally.
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