21 Days

So my friend bet me i couldn't go 21 days without drinking. I use the term bet loosely because neither of us actually win anything except maybe bragging rights. I knew i could do it, although i still have a week, because i don't typically drink that much. I drink most of the time he sees me but that is because he is a musician who plays in a bar and thus when i am at his shows, o drink. But if he played in coffee shops i would drink coffee. If i could get him to play i. A gym, i would work out.

He doesn't think i can do it because he believes the more your mind says you can't have something, the more you want it. Or something like that.

So far it has been a breeze even with peer pressure from everyone including him. But i will succeed.

I even find myself now thinking...why start back up at all? Not that i couldn't but how far can i go? For kicks at least? And i am wondering why it takes someone i am "reporting" to in order for me to do what i really want to?

I guess it is that overall lack of belief in myself or perhaps that all too familiar desire to please another and meet their expectations for me. I wonder if this is easy because i don't really care too much about alcohol ...should i try spear next or men or sweets or something else all too tempting for me to resist?