Having just come off of five days of staycation with my best friend has been bittersweet. Set aside the fact we were on vacation, I had so much fun just having her physically here to support me. She lives thousands of miles away and although we talk everyday, multiple times and practically incessantly, it is rare to have a chance to communicate without the use of technology.
It was nice to have her next to me everyday for 5 days straight. I loved seeing the smile that goes with the laughter I hear daily. I loved being silly with karaoke and Xbox with her as my companion. It reminded me of all the reasons why "here" is not home for me, why "there" is home for me. We daydreamed about how lovely it would be to live near one another. How her husband would probably hate it. It was nice to wake up to her smiles and "Good Morning Honey bee" in person.
Recounting her visit, it reminds me how blessed I am. Near or far, my friends are the most amazing friends in the world. I don't know how I can have such a great friendship picker and such a bad picker for everything else in my life but I do. My friends are understanding and supportive and inspiring and the driving force behind so much of who I am today. In fact, I'd feel comfortable saying that more of who i am today, this amazing woman I love, has to do with my friends than any other force in my life.
I'd love to shout out to everyone and I think over time that happens eventually as I write so many of these but I think this is a perfect opportunity to shout out to a few very close friends who have been solid ground for me over the last 9 months of pure heartbreak, confusion, growth, and acceptance.
Buttercup - I tell you I love you everyday, several times. I've never meant those words more. You have been a silent partner in every emotion I have felt in the past 9 months. You supported me through the good, the bad, and the ugly. I especially appreciate you assuring me it is not entirely crazy to set up a Fake Facebook to learn all you can about a life you are being blocked from. You gave me the strength to demand respect or demand an escape from an unhealthy situation. You are the first person I would call if I got arrested, and not just because I know you'd bail me out but because I know you'd laugh out whatever I did that landed me there...including driving a bus.
Stupid - Okay, that as a term of endearment is something only you and I understand but you know I love you more than anything. You annoy me and you can actually really be dumb when I come crying to you about my insecurities, But most the time you are great and you always make me laugh. I am so glad you are in my life, and that you were there when I got knocked off my feet and helped me get back up - both literally and figuratively.
Destiny - You inspire me so much which is an amazing feat. I don't need to publicize all the inter-workings of our friendship but I appreciate more than anything that you have been there for me to slap my hands when I need it, to support me when I faced loss and my own immortality, and to share your world with me. I know I can't hide the way I feel for you; anyone who sees me look at you knows it. I love you more than I believe makes sense for the limited time we have known each other. Something about you feels so right that I have to believe we were destined to meet. When I need to be inspired or I need to find joy inside my soul or when I simply need to melt away and be wrapped in a place bigger than me, you are who I call. Thank you for being that person for me.
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